It was never my choice

I was told after I graduate high school I was to move to Fords with my mom and dad and would be closer to college although it seemed cool while in high school I'm havng second thoughts. I was never given a choice if I wanted to move or not. I have too much crap in my room I have no idea what do with it. Should I sell it, keep it, throw it out, or donate it? I should of been in the new house by now but I'm stuck working on my room. I can't clean it all my self and my mom said she'd help me but when she came over to help me she never did she just made me get all the laundry out of my room my self. I don't like being forced to do things and now I'm being forced not only to clean my room but to move to a new town. I was just getting used to driving around East Brunswick. I don't want to get used to a whole new town. I also have no idea how I'll manage to get to work everyday when it'll be farther away once I move. I wish I could go back to high school I really don't feel like going to college anymore. I don't want to grow up. I want to go back to High Point atleast I was happier there. It was never my choice to leave there either! Even if I thought I hated that place and wanted to leave it didn't occur to me that I didn't want to leave until it was time to.=\ I sometimes just want to start all over again. If I could start over I'd want everything to change. It would include my looks, the way I see things, my opinion and thoughts, and maybe even my gender.