Society

After talking to a friend about society and what it does to celebrities it had me think a little to my senior year in Humanities. Everybody tries so hard to fit into this society "Norm". A girl needs to be skinny to fit in or a guy should have muscles. Marilyn Monroe was famous and was not your average size anorexic woman she wasn't afraid of who she was. Celebrities these days try so hard to fit into the society. Today's society music is all about sex and drugs and the newest craze "Twerking". Miley is an example. She went from this perfect image Disney Channel gave her to some just like everybody else twerking whore. Hannah Montana was an image created for a show on Disney Channel and a breaking point for Miley Cyrus a chance for her to be something. Though her dad helped her fame a little bit from his country songs he put out in the past. Miley made some great music as Hannah Montana and some of it was very inspirational and had moral in it and taught lessons. Even after the Hannah Montana movie when Miley wanted to shed off Hannah and just sing as Miley she had some inspirational music still like "The climb" which was her big hit after her movie. I feel she started going downhill a bit after the song "Can't be tamed" came out. The lowest is "we can't stop" The music video for it is disturbing. She makes out with dolls and twerks all over the place. Her VMA performance was even more disturbing and she totally shed off the Hannah Montana image now. With all her hair cut off and acting like everyones craze in the twerking and looking like sluts and whores. Miley wanted to shed off that image Disney gave her just to fit into that society norm. That's where it all falls into place everybody always wanting to fit into society that they do whatever it takes to do it even if it ruins their career or their health. Some people on the other hand like Michael Jackson changed his image to better himself not to fit in. He went from black to white because he had a rare skin disease that caused him small white spots so he bleaches his whole skin white and his fanbase dropped. People dissed him for that his hair changes his appearance changed and all of a sudden he is a pedophile for something that happened. His music was very touching and inspirational they taught lessons. Like Black or White for example taught it us it doesn't matter your skin color we're all human. His Earth song teaches how badly our planet is being treated and Man in the mirror teaches people to look at who they are don't be afraid to make a step up your game and make that change. He wanted to make a difference he wanted to change the world but he didn't into societies picture so he got ridiculed for it. It took until he passed away for people to appreciate who he was as a person. I really don't get why people try so hard to fit into society when they can be themselves. True beauty comes within not being like everybody else. Beauty is a different topic too and the question is, what is beauty anyway? The word Beautiful means something different to everyone. What one person thinks is beautiful someone else might think is ugly. Ugly that seems like such a harmful word and makes you wonder whats considered ugly and whats considered beautiful? Society considers beauty as a skinny anorexic looking woman who barely looks healthy. That isn't true beauty I believe true beauty is Marilyn Monroe I mentioned that she wasn't afraid to be who she was she wasn't your society norm she was different, she was unique, most of all she was herself.

I realize I can get very vicious

Yea like my title says I do notice that sometimes. I get really upset at something or someone and most the time take it out on this blog. Now I honestly don't know who reads my blogs at all or if anyone cares. I post here to let out steam now sometimes I do that on facebook but a lot of people tell me I really shouldn't vent out on facebook because sometimes it can lead or it can cause more trouble then you were really looking for. Now I know I have said some pretty nasty things about people in past blogs some of it I may have meant but some of it maybe not. I just type out of frustration that I'll say anything to blow off steam then I look back to that post later on and think to myself did I really just say that? Some of that is how I do feel though but probably could of worded it nicer. One thing I learned though this goes to a topic I may have mentioned here not quite sure but whatever. Never get too attached to someone you're friends with benefits with. They chose to be friends with benefits for a reason and if you start developing feelings it kinda starts ruining the friendship a little. I love him with all my heart I really do but I rather have him in my life as a good friend than not have him in my life at all. With my being way too attached too soon I kind of ruined most of our benefits to the point where we rarely do it anymore. Let's just say it went from him always being in the mood to me not so much to flipping that all around and I really want it and all he will say is I don't know. You apparently can turn a guy that is DTF into a guy thats not so DTF for you. Yes it does hurt seeing him flirt around with other girls and say and do sexual things to her. It especially hurts when one of those girls is your best friend since the first grade. You think a moral best friend code would come in there somewhere. What I find a little messed up though is that he really only messes around with her because she is "willing" and its just another person for him to fuck. I ruined us and I regret that but the damage has already been done and I can't take any of it back I just need to live with it and accept the mistakes I made. I was never the kind of person to be DTF and when it came to him flirting with me I never knew what to do or say because I honestly never liked being flirted with so dirty. Now I would give me than anything to have him flirt with me the way he used to I would actually flirt back or be dirty back. Thing is I try too hard sometimes now that it ruins the mood/moments. Just leads me to suffer from an anxiety attack and him to go off flirting with someone else. Sometimes I do wish I could change my past but I know if it weren't for any of the shit I went through I'd most likely be a completely different person and I probably wouldn't know half the people I know today. I'm learning who real friends are and I don't want to lose any of them. Especially my friends with benefits even if there is not so much of the benefits part anymore he still means so much to me and he always will whether he's my boyfriend or just a friend nothing will change.