Best Christmas Ever!!!!

I may be Jewish but this is the best Christmas ever because I passed my road test and got my license!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy that I can drive now so I don't have to depend on people to give me rides anymore lol. I'm going to see if I can have a driving spree and maybe go to the movies tomorrow I'm not sure what I want to see yet but I'll figure it out later. Right now I'm telling everyone I can think of the good news of my license. I'm never going to forget this Christmas lol. Next Christmas will be fun too when I get my basic license. Changing the subject to Chanukah now I'm also having a good Chanukah. The first night I got a pair of UGGS,money, earrings,and pajamas. The second night I got the Mamma Mia soundtrack. The third night I got a simon gift card and the Mamma Mia Movie. The fourth night which is today well besides my license as a fourth night gift I haven't opened my gifts yet so I can say what my gifts are yet. My family and I are going to a family friends house to celebrate Christmas so that'll be fun. The last night of Chanukah I'm celebrating with one of best friends. He is one of the closest guy friends I have and I don't have that many close guy friends. But I love them all just as much as I love my other friends. Well I'm going to go now enjoy your Christmas and if you're Jewish like me enjoy the rest of your Chanukah.

Updating a little

I haven't really updated in a while. A lot of things have happened some good some bad I rather talk about the good times then the bad times. Tuesday I went to the powderpuff game with friends it was so fun epsecially the bonfire at the end. During the bonfire me and my friend met and talked to a really cute firefighter. Not many things really happened that's worth writing about. I could talk about my humanities class though that's such a fun class. My humanities teacher is planning a trip to Japan I so want to go I'm begging my parents to let me and my mom is going to take me to the meeting on Decemkber 1st. I can't wait until December 24th because at 3:00pm I take my road test! If I pass I'm getting the best christmas/4th night of Chanukah gift ever lol. Chanukah starts December 21st this year. I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving and spending time with family. I'm thankful for my friends, and my family. I'm also thankful for many other things I just don't feel listing every single thing becauee I really could go on forever. I've been really stressed out lately and have been having on off good moods bad moods. I've been having some hard times in school but luckily I have some good teachers who have been there for me and have helped me. I should also be lucky to have such great friends who are there for me when I need them. I needed them recentally and they proved to me I could trust them for the good and bad times. I couldn't ask for better friends or teachers.

I felt like writing something

This post will have no point I'm going to be putting in random things but right now I've come to a realization while trying to help out a friend. Everything happens for a reason and wether we want them to happen or not we still have to let them happen because although we may of gotten hurt from what just happened we learn from that event. Just because something bad happened you shouldn't let that get to you because just think someone one out there is probably having a worse time then you. Life is random and it isn't perfect. Your life can never be really perfect because nothing is perfect 100%. Life is complicated for everyone you're not going to know the meaning of everything because no one is that smart. People may think they know what loves means but really they have no clue what so ever. No one really knows the real meaning of love. Love is way too complicated for anyone to understand fully. You can say you love someone all you want but you still wont know the true meaning. If you think about it Love backwards is evol and if you say quick enough it sounds like evil. Love is evil sometimes too and yet we still pretend its not. We're too busying loving someone or something to realize anything. Sometimes people act as though the world only revolves around them and dont care about anyone but them selves and thats when things go wrong and fights start. If people stopped caring about them selves and started caring about the things or people around them imagine the things that could happen, imagine the things we could to do to make the world a better place because we've opened our eyes and have seen what is really going on in our world. I believe there is good in everybody and everyone can do something good for the world if they could just realize what is really going on. I have a whole bunch I could say but dont know how to word it exactly so I think I have wrote enough and I'm going to now but you can always talk to me on this topic. I would love to share my opinions and hear yours. I also want you all to know that If you ever need me I will be there for you wether you need to talk to someone or just need someone to be there for you. I will always be there for my friends through the good and bad times and I will do my best to help them out and cheer them up when they need it and give them advice when they aren't sure what do or need help in a problem they can't figure out what do and need all the help the can get. I'm always here for you and you can always trust me with your secrets I love and care for my friends like they were part of my family.

Time to update

I have some good news i got accepted Middlesex County College and I'm so happy =]. Once I got home my good mood was destroyed by my stupid computer because my internet wont stop crashing on me it must ahev crashed like 50 times since I got home and its really pissing me off. I want to blow my stupid computer up right now or beat something up thats how annoyed I am. I'm forced to use my phone to go on aim and talk and I hate doing that because it pays but what other choice do I have. I cant log onto aim on my computer anymore because apparently it signed me off and on too much it says I tried to soon and wont let me on. What makes it worse was on msn I was talking to Justin and because of my internet I kept signing off and on. I had to keep saying sorry eventually I just said I'll talk to you when my internet stops acting up but because of this stupid weather who knows when that'll be. I need some time to calm down but my calm down time is spending time on the computer which I cant do because of my good for nothing internet. I really want to talk to Justin but I cant because my internet wont stop crashing so its hard talking to him when I keep signing off and on. I hope my internet calms down and actually cooperates with me with out constantly crashing lol.

happy blog

Thought I'd update and make this blog entry happier then my other one. I had to get that out I dont care wether people read it or not. It was not me trying to be emo either. Anways happy thoughts from now on lol. I'm listening to music right now getting ready for bed or atleast trying to. Im not even tired maybe only a little bit lol. I want to go to school tomorrow yet at the same time I dont want to. I never liked Monday's. I like Friday's better. I'm not a fan of school this year things are differe since all my 08 friends are again. I miss a certain someone too I'm not mentioning names my friends should know. I love talking to him though when I get the chance. We still hang out too just like we did last year about once a week lol. I'm getting more active this year in in school. I'm in the senior council. I'm going to be a part of homecoming decorations. I'm a part of deciding our prom theme too. I'm trying my best to be more school spirited since its my final year of high school. I still can't believe I'm a senior though because it feels like just yesterday I was this inocent little first grader and just look at me now lol. I'm still inocent in someways atleast lol. I think I'm going to stop writing now and try to get to bed that and I really don't know what else to say lol. So good bye good night don't led the bed bugs bite =p.

I just want to get this out this is more for me then for everyone else but read if you want

I don't care who reads this or not I'm only posting it for me. If anyone reads this and wants to make remarks or comments to help me feel free but nothing mean or rude. If you do want to help good luck because what I'm about to write after I'm done explaining people have tried to help me with for years but its one of those things that can't be helped can't be answered and won't ever go away. I used to go through a very horrible phase where I would get extremely depressed and worry about my future. I was afraid of it. I was afraid to grow up, grow old, and die. I'm afraid of death. I feel like this phase is phase is coming back. I'm thinking about again and getting depressed agaim. There are times I cry my self to sleep. The reason I'm so afraid of death is because. I'm afrd what happens. I know I shouldn't be worrying about this stuff. I worry like about reincarnation does it really exsist? I worry about heaven do you go there after death? What about hell is that real too? I worry the most about this last one I'm about to explain and this one always makes me the most scared and the most depressed. Do you die and then nothing? Like you don't remember a thing you're dead and then all you see is blackness not knowing what just happened? I really want to believe in reincarnation but no one has proof or answers if it really exsists so it scares me. I normally try not to think about this stuff so I don't get depressed but it just randomally started coming back to me I mostly think about when I'm alone. If I'm with friends I'm fine. I don't think my parents know about how I feel on this but they will probably give me the same answers everyone else has been giving me. This is a hard topic there are no answers to it. It's not like you can just go up to someone who died and ask "Hows it feel to be dead?". When I think about this stuff I try my best to think of other things like happy things happy memories. But my thoughts on this topic gets so strong sometimes I cant avoid it I can't ignore them and I end up in tears lots and lots of tears. I have cried my self to sleep many times thinking about all this. I worry too much about my future. I know Forget the past worry about the present. I also no don't worry about the future because everyday is your future you decide what your future is. I don't worry or regret much about my past anymore its all focused on my future now. I'm terrified of dying I wish I could live for ever. I hate having to post this entry but I didn't know where else to post it. I'm not emo I didn't post this to be emo I posted it only for me only to get it off my chest. If anyone does read this like I said in the beginning and wants to try their best to help me I wish you luck because many have tried and many have failed. If you can prove to me reincarnation is real then I don't have to worry. To make my self feel better I used to think of this, Every second someone dies and every second someone is born. But then that stopped working when I found out and starting thinking/wondering knowing the ways babies are made is it possible for you to die then just somehow appear in a woman's stomach and start growing into a brand new baby? I think I'm gouing to stop writing its making me feel bad and if you want try your best to help me on this topic I really didn't want to write it nor did I know where I wanted to don't ask my why I decided blogspot. I'm done now also I'm sorry if I made anyone depressed by reading what could actually be my longest post ever

First day of school

Eh the first day of school it was ok. It was really hot in some classes though. The very first day and I get assigned homework first period. I finished it though. Everything was good until last period walking down the bleachers I get caught on a bolt from the bleacher banister and it rips my brand new jeans. They were the only size 16 jeans I have, oh did I mention I lost 4 pounds and I also went down 2 jeans sizes? Well now I did lol. My spacebar is bothering me it broke off again and everytime I use it breaks off and I have to keep fixing it. Its getting annoying I just want to snap in in half right now but thats not going to solve anything lol. I'm going to have an interesting school year. I'm happy to have one of my best friends in my lunch period. I enjoy sitting in the senior section and I'm happy I have preschool education lol. I had an interesting class we did the itsy bitsy spider we actually had to write it down then when we were all done writing we sang it with the moves and all lol. Six weeks from now the preschoolers will come in and we start teaching and observing them. It's going to be so fun lol. Looking forward to the rest of year for some of my classes atleast. Some classes I could live without. I wish I had chorus this year and late in or early out would of been nice lol. In order for me to even get chorus I'd have to drop preschool education and that is not going to happen lmao.

Humid in Florida

I've been in Florida since Monday I'm going home the 26th. So far it has been rainy humid hot and windy lol. I picked a bad time to come. Hurricane Fay is on watch and right now they call it Tropical storm Fay. It hasn't hit Florida yet It looks like its heading towards Key West and I'm in Delray Beach. I'm not familiar with Florida so I don't know how far a distance they are. If the weather is nice tomorrow I'm going to go swimming and hopefully go swimming and get a nice tan for school lol. I don't want to go into school looking all pale and have people ask me what did you do your summer? Every girl needs to get atleast a little tan over the summer and for the first day of school I don't think I've ever seen a girl who hasn't gotten a tan over the summer. Luckily I've been getting some good sleep unlike my sleepless nights in New Jersey lol. I hope I can be able to sleep when I get back and then be able to wake up at 5 in the morning to get ready for school lol. Not looking forward to having to wake up 5 in the morning for school. Luckily I'm a senior this year so last year I have to wake up early every day lol. I can't wait until December 24th. I take my road test at 3 pm and then if I pass chances are I will lol I get my license and I can start driving to school and not depend on my bus or my mom to take me lol. I don't have to ride the bus home anymore I just get into my car and go right home, thats if I even had a car lol.

Summer is almost over

Well just about 2 more weeks of summer vacation. I can't believe its almost over lol. I can't wait until Monday. I'm going to Florida for a week! I'll be back August 26th. Then August 27th I have a REBEL meeting to get ready for school and stuff. Then August 30th I'm going into to NYC to see Spring Awakening with Justin and his mom. I love broadway so much. Thats all my last minute summer plans lol. I'm pretty excited to be a senior. But I also can't believe it lol. I feel like it was just yesterday when I was just an innocent little 1st grader lol. What happened to my innocence? What happens to everyones innocence after they turn 13? =p I still sorta need to go school shopping for new clothes and stuff lol. My summer reading is all done and so is my summary for my book. Though I need my book my friend is Sabrina is borrowing it she wanted to read the same book as me lol. Its called I'd Tell You I love You but, Then I'd Have to Kill You, by Ally Carter. I loved the book so much I read the sequal Cross My Heart and Hope to Spy lol. I read a lot of book this summer. I remember when I used to read all the time and enjoyed it now I don't read as much as I used to. I've been changing so much lately some for the good and some for the bad lol. I decided to let my self just go ahead and change and not try to stop it maybe just maybe I might turn into a better person who knows lol.

Updating

I haven't wrote anything in a while I explained before why I don't update everyday anmore but I don't want this to be like my xanga when I forgot about it lol. Well I have a few things to say. I saw the Dark Night a while back and loved it. The Joker is amazing! Why so serious? lol. I love the pencil trick. I went on the Dark Night roller coaster at Six Flags and OMG it was the most amazing ride ever!!!! I got to go on it again lol. I can't wait for Monday because the Middlesex County Far begins. I want to go like everyday lol. I need people to go with idc who I go with as long as I have a fun time and get to ride the Zipper and the Gravitron. Those are my 2 most favorite rides of all time well besides roller coasters lol. The only roller coaster at the fair is that Dragon Wagon I used to love when I was little but I'm too old and to big to go on it now lol. There aresome other cool rides too like that Scrambler ride and that Cliff Hanger ride. I think thats what its called lol. The fair also has some cool shows and attractions all over the place. I didn't get to go to the fair last year because I was in Colorado. I was so upset lol but I had a fun time in Colorado anyway. I want to go back to Colorado that was fun. Sadly for me I didn't get a vacation this summer. There is one month left and half my summer was boring. I hope next year will be better. I dont want to say I'll make new friends because I'll be a senior I don't want to make friends with a bunch of stupid sophomores lol.

Tired of job hunting

I've been filling out millions of applications looking for jobs and I'm starting to get tired of applications. I had an interview at American Eagle yesterday it went ok. It was a group interview and they told us they wouldn't get back to any of us until August. So I have to fill out more applications just in case I don't get the job because I need a job some where. I need my own money and I need something to do during the day. Half the summer I sit at home doing nothing but watch TV and use the computer I'm lucky if I can even get out of the house to do something with on of my friends at all. I sort of want to go back to school. There a few reasons why I like school. One reason is gone but I'll explain that reason last. The first reason I like school is I can see my friends everyday. The second reason is it gives me something to do so I'm not bored even if I complain school is boring sometimes lol. The last reason that was only effective for my sophomore and junior year was I could see Justin everyday but now that he graduated and is going to Middlesex County College I can't see him everyday. The only good thing about this up coming school year is I'll finally be a senior. Although I can't believe I'm a senior already its like just yesterday I was an innocent little girl in the 1st grade. What happened to that innocent little girl I used to know? Lol. I wish I didn't have to grow up and I could stay young forever but unfortunately I do have to grow up eventually lol.

Job Hunting at Brunswick Square Mall

Today I went to the Brunswick Square Mall with my friends Sabrina, Christina, and Allison. Sabrina and I went to almost every store and filled out applications. I must of filled out like a million applications. I still need to finish my Hallmark application then I need to go and fill out an application to Old Navy online. I think I had enough applications for a while. I filled out like 14 or so in one day it was so tiring. I wonder if any of them will get back to me. It was fun doing that going around every store asking for applications until Sabrina and I had to fill all of them out. I really want to work at Ruby Tuesday but you have to be 18 to work there. I've always dreamt of being a waitress I have no idea why either. One day I will be a waitress lol. Job hunting is fun sometimes. I still need to go to KFC and give them back back the application I filled out and I need a new Starbucks application. I filled one out but lost it. I'm tired right now I thought I'd never finish the applications. I hate filling out my employment history and references too. I also hate giving out my cell phone number and e-mail address on applications. I really want to see Meet Dave it looks so good. I saw Journey to the Center of the Earth in 3D with my dad and Justin yesterday it was such a good movie. I want to see him again but I did enough and I can't get anymore money from my dad this weekend.

Good 4th of July

My 4th of July was fun I went to Milltown to see fireworks. I didn't go see them last year though I did see some from my house which wasn't the same. I went to see them with some of my best friends then I slept over their house. We took forever to go to sleep lol. I must have been up at like 3 am until I finally fell asleep. I was trying to save pictures to my computer. They were pictures of fireworks but I had so many pictures I fell asleep in the middle of saving them. Then when I woke up my friend stole my laptop so I couldn't finish. I'm waiting for 7 I'm going to be seeing Hancock with Justin. That movie looks good I can't wait to see it. I love Will Smith. Well there is a lot of celebrities I love so much that I can't name them all lol. I'm watching tv right now its all I do lol. I'm watching Phil of the Future. Its such a cool show and Ricky Ullman is such a good actor. He plays Phil I love him lol. Now I'm watching a music video from Billy Ray Cyrus. When I'm done typing this I'm going to upload the CD's I got from the library onto my computer. I want Billy Ray Cyrus' new song. It's so cool. I love Billy Ray Cyrus and Miley Cyrus but I like Billy Ray Cyrus more lol. He's country music and country music is so cool. I love classical musical its so different from what we call music today and thats what I like about it.

I've been thinking

Yes I think lol. Well anyways I have been thinking and I was thinking that instead posting entries everyday and having some entries that have no meaning even though I say some entries could be pointless but there are times when I really have no idea what to say. So I think from now on I'll only post entries when I know what I want to say or when I had something exciting happen that I want to share. I like how I'm not paying attention to the movie I started. I was on demand looking for movies and turned Superbad and now I'm not even paying attention to it. I'm paying attention very little. I'm really running out things to say nothing exciting happened much. Summer vacation is kind of boring right now. Yesterday I saw Wall-E and I thought it was really good. I really want to see You Don't Mess With Zohan. There's a lot of movies I want to see. Too many of them are coming out at once its kind of annoying in a way lol. I can't wait for Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince (the 6th Harry Potter in case someone who is reading this and doesn't know that lol). It comes out November 21, 2008. The seventh one is going to be in 2 parts. I believe the first part comes out May 2011. I did a bunch of research on Harry Potter when I was bored one day lol. I'm glad I did because I found out a lot more then I knew. I read all the books so I know everything now. I saw all the movies out right now and am waiting for the next =p. Well I'm going to go now so bye.

Fun party

My party was so much fun. We had a big water balloon fight and water gun fight which was amazing lol. We had fun with the slip n' slide too. It rained on us but it didn't really ruin it for us. A few of my friends were in the streets lying down in the rain. A few of my friends including me went down to the park to play red rover. After like one game they left me and Justin standing there holding hands. Allison tried taking a picture but it was too dark and it didn't work but then her and all my other friends just ditched us as they ran home leaving me and Justin there holding hands. A few seconds later we did catch up to them. It was pretty funny though I was enjoying the time I held his hand lol. We were were watching Rocky Horror before but never finished it. Later we also made smore's which was really fun. I got some nice gifts too. Justin gave me a nice gift I think I liked his the best. He got me a singing balloon and a big thing of flowers. Which are outside right now. I refuse to go outside right now I already have a million misquito bites on my legs and I do not want anymore. I have like 27 on one leg I don't even know on the other one I lost count. One of my gifts is blocking my view of the tv but I'm too lazy to get up and move it lol. I'm lying down in bed typing this right now. I'm so lazy sometimes lol. Oh well its who I am =p.

excited for tomorrow

I was outside for awhile setting up for tomorrow but I have more to set it up it just was getting dark so I had to go in lol. I'm looking forward to seeing all my friends at my house. My party is going to be so fun. I have 2 mini pools, a slip n' slide, and 400 water balloons. We also have lots of mini water guns. I'm going to bring mygame Apples to Apples and curses out because they fun party games. I have around 11 people coming over so it should be really fun. I wonder who will be the first person to show up. I hope tomorrow goes by fast. It should since I still have a lot of work to do to set up stuff in our backyard. I set up the slip n' slide and pools already. My backyard looks pretty cool now. I have a volleyball net to set up and it came with a huge volleyball. It better not rain like it did today then my party will be ruined. I was looking forward to this for weeks so I'll be really upset if it rains. I like last years party when it rained on us we were at crystal springs. When it rained and crystal springs shut down we just all went to the mall it was so funny. We had so much fun and it was the biggest group I went to the mall with too lol. I'll never forget that. It was for my 16th birthday. I'll also never forget my 14th birthday I went to a school dance only for 9th graders it was our semi formal. I found it funny that it was on my birthday but I did have a lot of fun. Which is always a good thing lol.

Nothing to do

With school out for the summer I have nothing to do. All my friends are busy but I'm stuck at home doing nothing. I cant wait for my party Monday when I can actually be with all my friends for once. Because I'm so bored I'm actually reading my summer reading book instead of waiting until the last week of summer. I'm actually liking the book I find it weird I'm always picking books that have my name in it. The book I'm reading might also be a disney movie it says so on the back of my book. That'll be so cool if it was it sounds like it'd make a good movie. I don't read as much as I used to. I used to love reading and would read all the time. I would read a million chapter books a week. Now it's like I don't read anymore like I lost the love in reading. I don't know who I am anymore I've changed a lot recentally. I don't even like who I'm changing into all things I'd say I'd never do or I'd never say is happening. I've always said I'd never judge a person for who they are and now am judging people. I have no idea if changing in a good way or a bad way but as of right now I don't like it. I don't want to sound all emo like saying I don't know who I am anymore or what my meaning is but because I'm changing so much I actually feel that way and its really weird.

Officially a senior

Now that the class of 2008 graduation I'm officially a senior lol. Graduation was nice I went to sing. After graduation I went out to lunch with Justin and his family. Then I went over his house for awhile helped him make an e-mail lol. Now all he needs is a facebook. Later we went to go see Love Guru I loved it. It was so funny. I was out all day, pretty much from like 6:40ish am to now thats a long time lol. School is finally over and I can relax. I can sleep till when ever I want now. Until September 3rd when school start again =\. Well I did have fun today I became Richard's 4th wife. Richard is one of my best friends. I went from his 10th wife to his 6th to his 5th. Its funny how I became his 4th. After the graduation was over the seniors were leaving he screamed to Justin saying how he looked sexy. I was like... Hey! You may be my husband now but that does not mean you can cheat on me for my boyfriend! Allison was like you guys are dating now? I said no I just like calling him that now. Though I really do want to be Justin's girlfriend. But the way I said that to Richard was so funny he made me his 4th wife lol. I love my friends so much. I couldn't ask for better friends because all my friends are perfect. I don't know where I'd be with out my friends.

Busy busy

I forgot to update in awhile I've been busy lately. Finals are finally over! School isn't over yet I have to go into school and sing for graduation. The good news is I have my permit! I finished my driving lessons and I'm driving to school tomorrow! I take my road test December 24th 2008. If I pass which hopefully I will I get my license! I am a senior! Because today was considered the last day so thats technically the last day of my junior year tomorrow doesn't count!!!!! Seniors 2009 will be the best year ever! I really really really hope I get pre-school education. I'm also hoping for Humanities that looks like such a fun class. I hope I get into chorus too I really want a full year but I'm ok with a semester if thats all I can fit into my schedule. After graduation I'm going out to lunch with my friend Justin and his whole family. I get to meet his whole family for the first time lol. I already met his parents but now I'm going to be seeing his grandparents and maybe his sister. I can't wait lol. The only sad thing is he is graduating I'm really going to miss him next year. We would always talk in the hallways. I don't get to do that next year because he'll be in Middlesex County College and I'll still be in High School. He's my best guy friend. I've never been to closer to any guy like him before. I love him and he means the world to me =D. I never want anything to happen to him or to us. I can't wait for my birthday party he is coming and all my friends its going to be so much fun!!!

Crystal Springs

I went to crystal springs today by my self because I couldn't get anyone to go but I had fun swimming. I went pretty much every pool except the kiddie pool. The kiddie pool is boring. I want to get out again my dad has his friends over they are playing this weird game and they are so loud. I can't go in the dining room or the kitchen so I'm pretty much trapped in my room thats one reason why I didn't care going to crystal springs my self. School is almost over this is the last week I have to go in and I'll be a senior! I'm going to graduation I'm excited for Justin graduation but at the same time I don't want him to graduate I'll miss him next year. School won't be the same without talking to him in the hall ways. I locked my cat out and she was meowing to come I love her bu she gets really really annoying sometimes and I have so many scratches from he that I think turned into some scars. I'm really bored right now I want to be with Justin but he is busy and so is half my friends. My friends are always busy and I'm always alone. I created a song about that once I don't like how it came out though. I hate how I sing. I can sing in a group but I can't go solo. Thats why I never did solo's in chorus class I don't like how my voice sounds when I sing by my self. I like to have people back me up so I don't just hear my self.

TGIF again

Another final gone and now 2 more days left and in those 2 days 4 finals. I'm not looking forward to Monday being stuck with a teacher I really hate for 2 hours. I saw Get Smart tonight I thought it was really funny. I bought my yearbook today its cool. Though I'm only on one page last year I was in like 4 pages. My friends have more pages then me. Lucky friends lol. School is almost over just around 5 more days left. It would of been 4 but I'm singing in the graduation so I have to go to it. I'm singing the star spangled banner, our alma mater, and our graduation song which is Unwritten. I'm listening to 101.5. My brother told me he requested a song and dedicated it to me so now I'm waiting to see if they are going to play it. I love 101.5 Friday request shows. I just saw a big ant on my computer screen and because my light is burned out I saw the and it really scared me it just went behind my computer. I'm afraid to know where it is right now since its so dark in my room. It just started crawling on me and scared me I tried to kill it with my phone. I missed it and its on my computer again crawling al over my screen right now as I'm typing this its scaring me. I don't want to kill it its on my computer. My brother just came and got rid of it for me. Now I can calm down lol. I'm in a weird posistion right now I feel too lazy to move lol. I really want to see Love Guru and You Don't Mess with Zohan. Well I ran out of stuff to write so I'm going to stop writing.

1 final day gone 3 left

My English and History final went pretty well. I think I did a good job. Tomorrow is Chorus and Geometry. I'm not looking forward to my Geometry finals. I hate math so much. I was never any good at math. I think we're just watching a movie in Chorus. I don't know what movie I think maybe Happy Feet. My mom talked to a driving school. I'm getting my permit Saturday and starting lessons Tuesday! =D I'm kind of afraid to drive after today. Me and my brother were taking a friend home we got a little lost he tried to turn around when BOOM! We crashed into a car. It was my very first accident where I was a victim. We're all ok but the car is really scratched up. It freaked me out since I was never in an accident before. I handled it nicely for my first one. My brother handled it nicely too. We had a nice friendly cop which was good. Since I was a wittness and so was my friend we had to give the cop our information. I was still a little scared about what had happened so for a split second I forgot how to spell my name. It made me feel stupid but everyone feels stupid at one part of their life lol. I believe things happen for a reason. Something some people need to learn to accept. You can learn from your mistakes and learn how to do a better job the next time or to try a different way. Unless your're one of those few unluky people who can't undo their mistake. I will never drink and drive at the same time. I know how dangerous it is and how serious it is. I may hate school but I pay attention in class. Well atleast up to the last month then I just stop caring lol. I can't wait to be a senior next year. Senior 09 rocks! =P Justin called me and asked me to go to lunch with him and his family next week after graduation and my mom is letting me =D. I'm singing at the graduation I get to watch him graduate =D. He was so lucky today he was exempt from both his finals he didn't have to come in >:o. He is coming in tomorrow he has finals tomorrow. I missed him today so I can't wait to see him =D.

Last full day of school

Today was the last ful day of school and I start finals tomorrow. My math teacher was mad at me because I hardly did work in class. School has like 4 more days I can't focus. I just want school to end. I'm sick and tired of school and waking up early. I could could care less about school. I olny go to see my friends. That and I'm also forced to. I make teachers think I love school. It makes them love me but my teachers don't know the real me. I can't show them the real me. I'd get in trouble and my mom would get angry. I can never show any of my teachers the real me. I hate being so perfect in school but I have to be I'd be grounded for life if I got suspended or detention for anything other then being late. I can't wait to be a senior. I'll change my senior year I'll try to be less perfect lol. I just want to graduate and go to college.I'll be going to Middlesex County college and I plan to major in education. I have my whole plan set. No one can will mess it up or change it. I don't want too much confusion in my future. I wonder what my classes will be next year. I better get pre-school education or else I'll die! Lol. I also hope I get Humanties the class sounds fun and a really cool teacher runs it. He has the best personality for a teacher. I think he has got to be the best teacher at EBHS. I know him from GASP. He has to be the coolest teacher I know even if I never had him as a teacher yet lol.

Another boring day

Today was a little better then yesterday although my stomach was bothering me through out the day in school. I'm watching movies in a lot of my classes now. Some classes are reviewing finals. Geometry is the only class I have the most work in and the only class I still get homework in. My teacher likes going to the media center its cooler then our class. I like it too if I'm lucky I get to see a friend in the hallway and talk to him. When you have a class in the media center you're supposed to wait for the bell to leave one time I was lucky and snuck out with out getting caught. I wasn't so lucky yesterday I was forced to wait. Today I thought I'd trick the librarian and ask to use the bathroom she said I needed permission from my teacher I told her my teacher doesn't care we're done we're waiting for the bell. But the stupid librarian made me go over and ask my teacher. So I went over and asked knowing the answer was yes anyway. Then I walked out and didn't even go to the bathroom I went to go talk to my friend. I could care less about school right now. I sort of go through a cycle when it comes to school. September the beginning of the year I love school and am excited to go back. Near the middle of the year I still love it but getting a little tired of it. By June the last month of school I'm sick of it and want to get out. Mid-summer I'm bored and want to go back to school. It starts all over again each year. I don't know if it'll be like that when I go off to college. College is not the same as high school things will be a lot different. But I'm just glad my junior year is almost over. Just one more full day left then 4 days of final exams. After that 2 more days and I'm out for the summer. I would have one more day left after the finals but because I'm in the choir I'm singing at graduation. So all seniors teachers and chorus students have to be at school the 26th while the sophomores and juniors who aren't in the choir get stay home and relax. I don't want to take finals I wish I was exempt hopefully next year I can get exempt from some. Thursday I have English and History, Friday is Chorus and Geometry, Monday is Human Growth and Development and Computer Graphics, Monday is Chef's Lab and Dance. Not looking forward to most of them but lets hope it goes by fast and lets hope I'm allowed to sleep if I'm finished early.

Bad day

I hate Mondays so much and today sucked kind of. Most of my day was ok it started like every other day waking up for school and getting ready. Around lunch period everything changed. I went through the day feeling really hungry lunch comes I don't feel all that hungry anymore. Around math period which is after lunch my stomach starts bothering me. It got worse by my computer graphics period which is after math. I was in the auitorim for some video count down for a video production class. The class looks fun I would take it but I don't have enough room on my schedule next year there is too many other classes I want to take. But I couldn't enjoy the music videos much because my stomach was really bothering me at that time I started crying kind of. I was sitting all alone in the back so no one noticed the fact that I was in pain or even crying. Not even the teacher who was sitting behind me. Maybe because the room was like pitch black except for the light coming from the screen we were watching. When I go home from school I took pain killers to help my stomach and also had chocolate. I fell asleep for hours woke up around 7 and had dinner around 8. An hour ago my stomach was bothering me again so I took more pain killers it kicked in a little though I still don't feel so good. I have geometry homework but I don't feel like doing it. I could of done it in class but I couldn't focus my stomach was bothering me way too much. This kid in my class was laughing at me he said what are you hyperventilatin? Only because I was breathing heavily from the pain though I ignored him because I didn't want to start something. I also just didn't feel like talking and because it was a guy I didn't want to tell him its cramps because why would he care he's not even my friend he's just my classmate and why would I have to explain my self anyway?

Fathers Day

For fathers day my whole family went to see The Incredible Hulk. After we saw that I went to the library with my brothers then to Miami Subs/Grill where I used to have a job we went there for dinner. I miss working there I got fired about 2 years ago. I rather not explain the story. I've been trying to find a job ever since I got fired and I haven't been successful yet. I'm not looking forward to school because Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday is our last full days of school. Thursday starts finals then they end next Tuesday. I have english and history first and history is big my teacher said its like 16 pages or something like that. I can't wait for school to end. I want it to be June 30th when I have my birthday party with my friends. Theres going to be a slip n' slide and water balloons for a water balloon fight lol. Is going to be in my backyard I'm looking forward to it too. Around 26 people should be coming lol thats if everyone RSVP's which I hope they do lol. I never had that many people over my house before so it'll be so much fun. I'm having so much boys come over I normally have like 4 or 5 now I have around 12 lmao. They better all come =p. I wonder what kind of gifts I'll get I hope its simon gift cards or money lol =p. Thats all us teens care about these days for a birthday gift cards and money =D =p. I have to hand out invitations tomorrow that'll be fun.

boring day

Well not much went on today except that I went and bought my summer reading book. Its called I'd Tell you I Love you, But then I'd have to Kill you. I read the summary its about a girl who goes to an all girls school but its not an ordinary girl school its a spy school. This girl Cammie can tap into phones and hack computers or track people down. She meets this ordinary boy who thinks she's an ordinary girl and she can't tell him she goes to a spy school. Last night I saw Kung fu Panda it was really funny. I'm dying to see Don't Mess with Zohan. It looks really funny and I love Adam Sandler. If he wasn't way older then me I'd marry him. But he is already married and I think he has a daughter. I'm watching tv and being bored. I already saw the episode a million times lol. Yesterday my chair broke when I was leaning backwards and fell backwards with it as it broke. I fixed it with duct tape and it hasn't been the same since. In the tv show I'm watching which btw is called Wizards of Waverly Place this character named Max made a sub. It made me crave a sub lol. I'd go up to Subway but I don't feel like it. I want to work there so I hope they hire at 17 and not 18. Now that I'm 17 I hope to find a job. When I was 15 everything hired at 16. After I turned 16 it changed to 17 so now I'm hoping it stays 17 lol. Well I don't know exactly what else to write so I'm stopping and continuing to watch my tv show.

TGIF

I only have 3 full days left of school then final exams then the last day of school! Yay! Lol =p. Final exams are long though 4 days each day has 2 classes and each class is 2 hours long! Atleast they are half days. I can't believe I'm almost a senior. I remember just yesterday I was off to the first grade lol. I find it weird I can remember pre-school but I can't remember kindergarten. I remembering getting into a fight at pre-school. There was this girl who had the same name as me and for some reason I hated her. I remember being mean to her and also remember during recess I spit on her got caught by a teacher and got time out lol. I also remember pushing her and teasing her. I was such a nice kid wasn't I? Lol. I also remember one time I got to leave pre-school early because I got into a fight with a boy and he threw sand in my eyes so I had to go the doctors. Those a pretty much the only memories I have although I remember nap time I think one time I didn't want to take a nap but had no choice. I was such a trouble-maker growing up and for people who know me today thats hard to believe lol. I would always ignore my teachers and I would push desks or refuse to work. In the first grade I was sent to the principal's office a lot though the principal was nice to me. I had ADHD I only acted that way because I didn't know how to control my self. I got sent to a private school and went there for 7 1/2 years it helped me a lot. I still have ADHD because obivously you can't get rid of it but my private school taught me how to control my self. I also believe it helped me with some anger issues even if the school wasn't based on anger management =p. I've changed a lot since then because after I left private school and went back to public school I became a good student lol. Thats why its hard to believe I was a trouble-maker=p. I'm going to leave I think I've wrote quite enough =p.

First random entry

I really want school to end I'm tired of waking up early everyday and being stuck in the same place for hours lol. I can't wait to be a senior and then go off to college. One thing I'm not looking forward to is final exams coming up. I'm worried in my computer graphics class I'm way behind and I hate the teacher I'm going to end up failing the class I never wanted that class to begin with my guidance councilor switched me into that class because my other class I think got dropped or something like that. I hope next year I get pre-school education. The class is basically a whole class on what I plan to be after I graduate lol. I'll die if I don't get that class and thats exactly what I told my guidance councilor lol not something you want to say to a guidance councilor. I also told my case manager another person you don't want to say that to lol but atleast its better then saying I'd kill my self. If I said that there would be big problems between my guidance councilor, my case manager, and me. I hope my summer is going to be fun. I have no idea what I'm doing except the last week of August I'm going to Mexico. I'll also be going to the Middlesex County Fair when that opens and I'll be riding the Zipper. I love that ride so much along with the Gravitron. I call it that but it has many different names I think they call it something like the Starhip 2000 now not sure but I don't care lol. You want to know what bothers me that I just saw happen not too long ago? Its one thing for some one to smoke I hate smokers and find it stupid and annoying but grew to accept it because there is nothing you can do when someone else is smoking but when someone is finished with the cigarette and just throws it on the floor and walks away that pisses me off the least you can do is put it out. There was one time I was getting something from the gas station some lady buys Marlboro Lights I wanted to go and say to her you know lights are just as bad as regulars? I decided not to say that because she'd be like who hell do you think you are and I didn't want to start something with a complete stranger lol.

My first entry

I have no idea why I joined blogspot I guess because I used to use xanga and realized no one uses that anymore. I doubt anyone read my entries and anyone will read my entries here. But if my entries here are read thats cool. Well since this is my first entry let me explain a little about me so you know who I am. My names Rebecca, I was born June 9, 1991. I was born in Edison, New Jersey at the JFK Hospital at 9:30 AM on a Sunday. Don't ask how I know all that but I do lol. When I was 1 years old I moved to East Brunswick, New Jersey. I love learning and cooking. I love history and science, they are my two favorite subjects in school. I also like singing which makes chorus my 3rd favorite subject. I plan to be a pre-school teacher when I grow up I'm going to Middlesex when I graduate majoring in education transferring to Rutgers hopefully then getting my masters degree. Music is my life I like classic music not the crap we have today. I hate todays generation I'd do anything to go back to the generation I grew up in. I love the 90's and miss them. I would also like to go back in any generation but todays generation. I am very friendly and love making friends. I'm only mean if you give me a reason to be mean. I like to express my feelings sometimes or share my opinions but I'm dogmatic so its hard to do that when people have different opinions then me. I'm a tomboy and don't like wearing dresses but I will if I have to. I think I've said enough and that should give you an idea of who I am but if you do want to know anything else about me you can ask me or just read my blogs more as I post more entries. I have myspace, facebook, and aim if you want to some how contact me there but in order to add my facebook you have to know me personally, I have to know you personally, or you have to go to my school. I only make acceptions to very few people. I don't care who adds me on my myspace but you have to be nice no rude comments or anything and you have to atleast talk to me once in a while.