Men Stink

So Justin decided to break it off with me and just stay friends. I told him I'm fine about it but I'm not I'm like depressed and mad at the same time. He decided to tell me acouple of days ago he wants to be friends and does it through facebook. I seriously can't believe I wasted five years of my life waiting for him! I turned down so many guys hoping to get a chance with him and nothing. All those times I thought we were close to something and we weren't I hung out with him two nights ago and I felt like we were back to square one. The was no leaning on him or cuddling (if you called it cuddling) or holding hands and as much as I still wanted to do all that I kept convicing myself not to. I need my five years back but apparently we can't go back in time. This new semester coming up Tuesday I'm spending it looking for guys and if Justin ends up getting jealous or something I'll be like hey you had your chance to be with me I gave you five years of my life and you did nothing! Its someone else's turn to try to take my heart away now and hopefully this time they don't break it in anyway. I love guys but sometimes can hate them so much too. =p You know that saying you can't live with men yet you can't live without them either. I just hate how they seem to always play with our emotions half the time they don't even realize it! Like I said I wasted five years of my freaking life to get to be more than friends with him and nothing! I thought I was close until that message had to show up. =\I'm currently listening to My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne because her lyrics relate to me kinda. Oh that song could this be love? I'm sick of that song now!