fucking piece of shit!

I think I mentioned before about someone who I call "Load of Shit". I need some venting about this asshole. My bestfriend who is like a sister to me dated him for a bit and hated it. I knew this douche bag since 4th grade always sensed he was no good and he proved me right last year. He is a controlling asshole who does not know how to treat a woman. He constatnly told my friend that she was not allowed to see anyone but him. He forced her to drop all her friends and always wanted to know where she was or what she was doing. If she was out he wanted to know who she was with. He got mad if she didn't reply back to his texts or call him every second of the day. My experience with him back in elementary school was that he was very selfish he only came over to play my video games and nothing else. He hogged my playstation one time and would not let my cousins or my brothers play. If he wasn't playing games he talked about foot jobs and blow jobs and his fucking foot fettish. Even now with my best friend dumping him and trying to get him out of her life. He is not leaving her alone. He is constantly threating her and saying that he wants her back. He wants to have a child with her and make her stay with him. He fucking raped her while she was knocked out from a spiked drink! He calls me a slut, a fat whale, and a whore. He's nicknamed me lardbut and called me that our whole childhood. He has no idea how to treat a woman what so ever! He says the next time he sees me he wants to beat me up. I never did anything to him and he is threatening me! He would of never met my friend if it weren't for me to begin with. He repays us by turning into a complete asshole. He needs to be locked up in jail for harassment against my best friend and threatening others as well. He's an abuser and a pyscho. I never hated anyone so much in my life as much as I hate this douche bag! I'm tired of hearing all this bullshit my friend is telling me only because she does nothing to even stop it! She keeps crying to me he's harassing her or threatening her. She says he says stuff about me and others. He started a rumor that I was pregnant. He even said he wished me and my boyfriend at the time would go die in a ditch somewhere. He is so lucky I'm a pacisfist. Even if I ever did see his face again I would be the better person and not stoop to his level and fight him because viloence is never the answer and fighting will only make things worse. If he ever does lay a hand on me or any of my friends while I'm around I'm going to call the cops on his ass and hope he gets locked up for life. I'm going to sit back and wait for karma to take revenge on his pathetic little ass.

some more venting

Wanted to get some vents out and just be random since it's been a while since my last post. I broke up with my boyfriend and that moment relieved so much stress for me. My only problem is I think I'm obsessed with Justin again. I never stopped loving him no matter how hard I tried to stop. It kills me inside that he doesn't feel the same way. I was talking to some friends before about it and actually crying to them too. With justin I feel like he really is the one and I really don't wana be with anyone but him. I was in full out tears asking myself what is wrong with me that Justin doesn't want me as a girlfriend. I really don't understand why he doesn't love me the same why that I love him. I would give almost anything in the world to be his girlfriend. The only thing I wouldn't give is my own life. No girl is willing to that for a guy either. He doesn't even realize he has a girl who is willing to almost anything just to have a chance with him. I love him so much and want to be with him so bad and I make it so obivious too but he is just too clueless to notice. He told me many times he only sees me as a friend and wants to stay friends. I told him I understand and accept that but really it is still very hard for me. Like said it really kills me more and more each day that I can't be with him in that way. Sometimes I feel as if I should just give up all together. I thought I was happy when I was with Mike. I was for a while but once I realized to myself that I still loved Justin and couldn't stop no matter how much I told myself to move on I couldn't. I really don't understand why I can't move, why my love for Justin has lasted for so long unlike the other high school crushes I've had. I've loved Justin since 2006 and today this day I still love him. I love him more and more each time I see him. I dream every day and wish every day that one day we can finally be together as boyfriend and girlfriend. The day that, that day comes I will most likely be the happiest person in the whole entire world. I wish like every night and hope one day the wish will come true.