Cant trust anyone these days

I question who to call my friends these days because the so called frieds I call my friends haven't been good friends lately. Everytime I'm with a big group of friend I feel like an outcast. I'm being left out of things by my own friends. The jokes my friends say about me is not funny anymore they are just mean. I'm tired of certain friends saying I can't drive for life. They shouldn't be talking because they aren't good either. No one is a perfect driver no one ever will be. I'm tired of being lonely. I need a new life. I going to change and this time I mean it. I will be different kind of girl for my freshman year of college. It's going to be hard but I'm going to try to stop acting tomboyish. People tell me I need to act more girly so now I'm finally going to. This means I'm going to have big outfit changes that normally I wouldn't be caught dead in. My hair will be hard since sometimes it has a mind of its own lol. I try to make it look good than later in the day it's always getting messed up. I would give up on my hair because I was tired of having to constantly fix it up. My mom is always buying me make up time for me to finally start using some of it. It's also time to use the nice purses she would get me too and the designer perfumes. Change of topic now I really want to see The Toxic Avenger Musical. I saw it once before it went on Broadway and loved it. The broadway cast is the same cast I saw too. I'm listening to the soundtrack right now. My keyboard is really annyoing me right now. It's acting stupid sometimes. I have to press keys a million times for it to finally work but now it seems to be acting normal. Stupid keyboard why are you being so messed up? -_- I'm bored and wide awake thats one reason I made this blog. I spend too much time online I really do need a new life lol.