DTF

Just felt like writing out a post wanting to vent a bit. Had a whole bunch I wanted to say a few days ago but didn't have time go online because I was too tired from work. I been working crazy ass hours lately. They have me working way too many double shifts these days. I think my job is trying to kill me or something lmao. Anyways now that I have to time to post I honestly forget what exactly I wanted to vent about. I mean there's a bunch I could say some I already said before I think. Like my friends with benefits I feel as if we aren't benefits much anymore. If I want sex I have to ask for it these days! It's not something you just ask for it should just be spontaneous and happen. I feel like I'm doing all the oral play too and he doesn't do anything anymore. He is supposed to be a down to fuck kind of guy but lately its like he doesn't want to anymore but I know for a fact he hooks up with my best friend who I can't even call a best friend anymore ever since I found that out. He hooks up with this other girl I never met before but I'm sure if they wanted to fuck he would so be down no matter the time of day. He is lying to me he told me he hooked up with my friend once and wasn't planning on doing it again that it was just a one time thing. But I found out that he does want to do it again that he tells my so called friend he enjoyed it so much that he can't wait to do it again. I don't get why you just can't be honest with me and tell me you're fucking my friend now and then yes I might be a little mad but I'd appreciate the honesty. I feel like I want to give up on men sometimes. I'm really considering dating a girl take my bi-side out for a bit lmao. I'm tired of doing all this oral play with him and barely getting any back in return. I'm tired of asking for sex and hearing you're not in the mood when I know that is bullshit because you are always down to fuck and supposedly always horny so don't go lying to me telling me you're not! You flirt with anything with boobs and will fuck anything with boobs as well. Going around flirting with all my friends and flirt even harder when they play hard to get. Whatever happened to flirting with me? You have a girl who would fuck you any time any day and you rather go to all her friends then her? What kind of shit is this? I only put up with it because I love you so much that I want a relationship out of this but now I feel how would I even be able to trust you at all? Men can not be trusted these days what so ever and that really annoys me. This is why I want to go and try dating a girl take a break from this drama of men and let my lesbian side come out.