Its been awhile

Its been quite a while since I last updated. Much has happened since then. I can't believe January is almost over though. There are a few things I like about February and a few things I hate about it. I normally hate Valentines day since its basically just for couples these days. All day in school I saw girls carrying around teddy bears big and small, chocolates, flowers, cards, balloons all given to them by their boyfriends. To make that worse everywhere I look there are couples holding hands, kissing eachother, and hugging eachother like they'd never see eachother again after that moment. Sometimes I feel like I'm all alone in a couples world. Sure ask all my friends they will say Justin and I are dating but thats not really true. We're just friends even though we all know I wish it were more. But I actually did used to be in a relationship. A long distance one but that didn't work out for me. Now I recentally found out my ex is actually married and has a daughter now and he's like a year older then me kind of. I can't believe that the fact he instally has a girlfriend when I broke up with him. I remember meeting him we were friends and he started liking me. We went to the same school until 7th grade then both went to schools in our home towns. We haven't seen eachother for 3 years eventually we met up again and hung out. But in those 3 years I've moved on he told me he hasn't many people have asked him out be he said no because of me. I bet you he was lying how else did he get a new girl so quickly? I'm sure eventually I'll have a nice relationship with someone but for now I'll live life the way it is and be happy for what I have now. I also want to make a difference in this world I dont know how but some how I will. I want to and will change the world someday and make it better.