Just an update

I thought it was time for an update because it has been quite a while since I posted something. I really don't know what to say exactly. I'm on facebook, watching tv, and IMing Justin. I'm a little depressed but that is how I always feel after I've spent time with Justin. I am always so happy around him and feel like nothing could be any better than it already is than when we leave I already start missing him. I feel like in order to stay happy I need to be with him. I guess what I am saying is I feel like I want to spend my life with him. The problem is how can I tell a guy who only likes me as a friend that I want to marry him? That would probably scare him off and I don't want that. Justin means so much to me I would literlly do anything for him. I dont want to lose him thats my biggest fear. Im afraid since he likes me as a friend that one day he's going to find someone that he likes more than a friend and I'm stuck heartbroken again. Those heart breaks cured but my feelings for him are so strong it would take forever to heal if I lost Justin. He knows I like him but he doesn't realize how much I'm afraid to tell him exactly how much because than it'll change what we have. I love him so much even if he doesn't love me back the same way as long as he knows I'm always there for him and would do anything to protect him.